Right then. So today I signed up and completed my first gym session for nearly 10 years. Small step I know but for me it was a massive wall to break down on my path the restoring my health.
I have a fear of places like the gym where you are basically on display for anyone in the room to watch, especially if you are using equipment that they are waiting for). I hate being watched as it is, Strange because I currently play in a band, but I hate it so much more when you are doing something that you really have to try hard in with a major potential to fail. When I used to go to the gym I went with an ex-girlfriend or some of my friends, but over time the relationship ended, and my friends left or moved away. So, what makes this gym different? Nothing. It isn’t a gym where you have your own little box to train in at all (I wish these existed), but I do have a friend that trains there and I am joining him on this adventure.
The main reason I stopped attending the gym was because I was seriously ill for a short time. I had an issue with heart and the muscles that surrounded it called Myocarditis. I spent a short time in hospital and when I was discharged, I was under strict orders to watch my heart rate for the first year. This ultimately led me to never want to push myself past a certain point. Now being a 21-year-old at the time this effected more than just my health, but any physical relationship I had at the time (I have well got past that now). Over the course of the next few years I convinced myself that if I pushed my body to try and get healthy, I would become ill again. I have done many hours of research into this and it is all a lie. I CAN push myself so I CAN become healthy again.
So now I have kind of conquered this fear and broken the ice after a little while I might look into getting a PT to help me focus on what I should be doing, but for now cardio and a bit of weights will have to do.
Hope this wasn’t a bore to read.
Love & Peace
Dan
Hi, My Name Is Dan 